yes, may i help you?

EDWARD CULLEN = ♥

2008-11-30T00:10:00.005+08:00

how can i walk away now? when i'm in too deep.

and that option seems more further then i'd expected. i'm surprised i have the guts to even think about that now. i must be insane, if not stupid. walking away - to me, sounds useless. i know i won't do it. but what other choices do i have? really.
exactly, none.
the only thing i have in mind that i could do, is play along. see, where this leads. since i'm in, why should i not go in any deeper? whats the worse that could happen? right?
i'm just saying that to assure myself :/

anyway, i was just wondering around and i came across this.
i found it pretty funny, though.

CULLEN! loveeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-11-28T03:56:00.001+08:00

i'm in love.
and its been a while since i felt for someone so strongly.

and oh, if you hadn't notice, there's no more tagboard.

I should saw this coming.

2008-11-18T04:15:00.002+08:00

I need to clear something.
I really want to be your friend, but you are making it hard to do so. Yes, its my fault i don't have time to spend with you. I have to juggle between you, my other friends, my family and also my work. Of course, i won't be asking you out or texting you frequently. I'm really sorry for giving you mixed signals about you thinking otherwise than i've forgotten you. I have not. But besides, why would you believe me anyway? You'll only listen to them. So, it doesn't really make a difference does it? But to end it, i miss you and i have not forgotten you. Have not.

greenlight.

2008-11-16T01:13:00.002+08:00

I'm beat.
Met up with titi then we headed to bugis. Titi bought some tops while i bought a beanie. We head back to the station and thats when we bumped into Yayah and her friends. We exchanged words then Yayah made us follow them to skate park. Once reached, the guys skate and we girls started playing Spin the Bottle, of all games. Then, at around 10+ we left sp, and we headed to marina. Sorry, but pictures are gonna be in the next post, i think. My phone went flat and i end up using Titi's phone.

uh oh, im having a crush on yellow dude. ahem.
hopefully, i don't fall too hard.

stupid life.

2008-11-10T03:12:00.002+08:00

Everything's been hectic. My life, my family, my friends and even my best boyfriend. And as time passes by, i seem to get more agitated by even the slightest things. Something's wrong. Ever since holidays started, it seems like i have no control over my life. I would do things, and say things that has never came out of me before. I would get all agitated when people talk about my friends and family and i would defend them like they are the precious thing on Earth. Which they are, of course. But even the slightest remark, would result in me being wild and having the tendency to punch them right in their fucking face. Is it just me, or i'm getting a lil bit wild?

You.
I know, its not your fault. When you call me, i don't pick up. When you text me, i would delete it. Yes, i delete all of your messages. Because in my world, you don't exist anymore. You played me, i fell for it. So when people ask me whats going on between us, that would answer it one way or another.

Go to hell.

2008-11-07T19:05:00.002+08:00

I'm pissed at him.

2 movies in a month.

2008-10-30T14:40:00.016+08:00

Wednesday.

Met up with my minahwep and off we went to watch HSM3. Before that, i had to wait for that minahwep for quite some time actually. And never was i soo goddamn early. And always, she's the one that has to wait for me. So, i guess revenge is really sweet.

Anyway, HSM3 at GV Tampines started around 4.40pm. And us girls, wanted to go in the afternoon cause there's the student price, 6 bucks. And by the time we reach Tampines Mall, it was already 5pm. We decided to make a run for it. But in the end, dint end up watching HSM3 at Tampines Mall but at Century Square, Cineplex. Besides, the movie there started at 5pm. So, bought tickets (courtesy of my minahwep<3) and some tidbits.

And for those who havent watch HSM3, the movie is not THAT bad. And after watching, i guess its the last movie of HSM. It all makes sense as they are all off to their university and the movie can't keep on going and going, it has to stop some where. But the chemistry between Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens is amazing. Unfortunately, the third one is the most saddening among all the HSM movies. I can't explain it all here, so go catch the movie. Its worth your 6 bucks, really.

Monday.

I woke up exceptionally early at 10am to get ready. It was so hard to get my lazy butt out of bed, seriously. Anyway, the whole reason i got up early was cause of Ree's openhouse. And yes, it was inconjunction of Deepavali. And the best thing was, we could use anything we want. Like, there's no need to use a Punjabi suit, etc. And it was my first time going to her house. Believe it or not, i really made myself comfortable there and i enjoyed myself, really. And and, not forgetting the lunch i had there! Which was by far the best i'd ever had at someone's house. (Courtesy of vonnie's)

Another thing was the tube of ice cream, Ree's mom brought into her room when we were slacking. Strawberry Haagen Dazs<3. And that resulted in everyone feeding each other. We exchanged ghost stories and we were making a fool of us in the room. It was just like a sleepover but without sleeping there. LOL.

Plus, Vonnie was shouting her small ass off when she saw this cute, lil dog. It was really cute, with the hair's being tied up on her head and all. Yes, vonnie has issues.

Munnie's priceless face. HAH.

omg, i so tired.

2008-10-29T03:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you wish you weren't supposed to be where you really are.
Sometimes you wish you weren't who you really are.
Sometimes you just wanna live your life without people knowing who you really are.
Sometimes you see your life being played, by another person.
Sometimes you envy the life of other people, who you barely know.
Sometimes you just wanna take off and never look back.

Thats how i feel.

hey monday.

2008-10-24T22:34:00.007+08:00

Let's make a mess
Steal a kiss in the moment
You and me
Everything that could be
Touch, don't go
Stay as long as you like

Let's get reckless
Dance with our hands to the beat
Don't let this slip through our fingers
It feels insane
Don't you put up a fight

I feel weird, very weird.

Okay anyway, this may seem very surprising or maybe not. But to me, it does. I woke up at like around 5.05pm. And its a first. Never did i woke up so late. But i guess, i gotta get used to it. Since holidays are already here, its sure gonna be a usual routine for me.
Today, stayed at home. Too lazy to get out, with the time i woke up and all. Speaking of which, i need to get out of the house. All of a sudden, i feel very weird. I need air. Besides, Arep owes me one berries and cookies.

And right now, im chatting with my minahwep<3
She's crazy in the head. COOKOOOOO!

Like finally, im able to post.

2008-10-21T23:30:00.012+08:00

Its 1.00am and im sleepy, so this time no elaboration or anything about my past weekend.
Simply pictures.

Monday.

Sunday.

Hafizah, the sucka with BOB hair<3>

Saturday.

JALAN JALAN JALAN JALAN JALAN JALAN RAYE.

2008-10-17T17:58:00.019+08:00

Jalan raye with Marina, Alisha, Yana, Sasya, Myra, Fathia, Dayah, Nana, Efa and Lubie.
And it was an all girls outing, mind you.
Seriously, no mood to elaborate everything that happened cause im so so lazy. So, the pictures would do alright. And and, there are alot more pictures but again like i said, im so so lazy.
And oh, i really had fun! From camwhoring under the block, to running under the rain to get to FatFat's house, to being very kecoh walking along Tampines Mart singing "I'm Yours", to debating about which guy celebrity is hotter, to complaining about our heels, to getting disturbed by a bunch of guys, to having butt cramps sitting in the MRT for a long time, to getting a car ride back from Jurong to Tampines and to reaching home in the morning. Thats about it.

Eh Fathia, remember "WEEEWEEEEEEEEEET!" Hahahaha.

Stupid survey.

2008-10-15T17:46:00.005+08:00

Today was hands down, the hottest day in my life.
What i meant was about the weather :l
Inter-class frisbee competition, and guess what? My class won, fuhhh.

Very very proud of them. And i dint know Jasper was THAT good. He's the star player. Lolol.

Then, off we went to the School Hall. The hall was already very humid and i was like sweating after the match. Plus plus, i dint bring my P.E shirt so i was forced to play using my school uniform. Luckily, i even had my shorts on. Anyw, went to the Hall to do some survey. And that was the most boring assembly ever.

Then, it was checking of results.

English: 72/100

Maths: Rabak/100

Science: Rabak/100

Geography: 57/100

DNT: 74/100

Malay: 58/100

Literature: Rabak but pass/100

Terok, right? Tsk.

And, right now im chatting with two lunatics.

But, they are crazy lunatics who just made my day. Hahaha.

Jalan jalan jalan jalan jalan jalan raye.

2008-10-14T23:15:00.017+08:00

Monday's delayed pictures.
There's alot more actually, but veryvery lazy to upload.
So this will do then. And oh, i had fun! Thats fo' sure!

Thats just how it is.

2008-10-13T02:18:00.002+08:00

Why do i keep running away from the truth?
I care about you as a friend, and yes as a friend. But hey, you're one unique guy and i get very well where you're coming from. And you keep saying missing me is hard, but you should try missing you. And and, we barely talk anymore and so much has changed over the past few months but i guess that's what happens when you grow up and grow apart.

Okay, enough of that shit.
Tomorrow another early morning. Haiyah.
9am must be up and how the hell can i wake up that early when its now 2.45am? Tomorrow is gonna be a chaotic day, i bet. Gonna be jalan-ing raye with Sha and all.
And im so gonna charge my handphone.

over and done.

2008-10-11T18:29:00.006+08:00

Friday.

After that horrible paper of Maths, i fled the school like some kind of lightning. Okay, kiddin. But i did fled the damn school faster than usual. Come on, thats the godddamn last paper! Who would want to be in the school anyway? And im so HAAAAAAAAAAAPY the exams are officially over. I waited the whole year for this. Officially over, but not for good. There's next year, must mug even harder. Ahhhhhhhh, fxck. But who cares, thats like in a years time or so. Now, im just gonna live in the moment. o.0

Anyway, me and Reena made plans and head to Bugis. Actually, i had other plans. I was supposed to jalan raye with Fadhli, AB, Raz and all. But, the feeling wasnt there. So, instead of jalan-ing raye, i went to Bugis. o.0

Saw many familiar faces. We even stalked this EXTREMELY-CUTE-GOOD-LOOKING-HOT-guy. Like, seriously. And end up, buying a hoodie and some tops.

And, tadaaa we went home.

And yippeeeeeeeeeeeee!

EXAMS ARE LIKE, OVER. mygawd. phew.

imy.

2008-10-09T19:51:00.000+08:00

i miss you.
whenever something funny happens, i wanna tell you.

Haiyah.

2008-10-08T19:34:00.002+08:00

Okay, i lied. That was not going to be my last post.
But im so bored till i have nothing else to do but update. Today, surprisingly Geography paper was managable. I also don't wanna say that its easy as im lying to myself. But it was somewhat managable. And i dint expect that. I expected the paper to be freakin hard. The paper's over, anyway. So its 7 down, 2 to go.
Two more papers and its over. Like, finally.

Uh oh, i have a major crush.

And oh no, its not areeeeep.

Oh, shitttaz! I have no choice but to go.

This year, im sooo green.

2008-10-02T18:21:00.005+08:00

First of all, let me say that im gonna be on HIATUS for quite some time till im done with the bloody exams. Hopefully, i'll be able to blog real soon. But fortunately, im gonna be kind of active in Friendster than in Blogger. Nevertheless, keep the tagboard alive okay? xoxo.

areeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep,

you can make me smile more

than anyone else in the world.

And oh, Selamat Hari Rayeeeeee!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin !

Kalau tersilap atau tersinggung perasaan, maafkan yerrrr? :D

i hate mondays.

2008-09-29T00:06:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZAH ! :D

All the best in the future and all the best for the upcoming exams! ily<3

CHIA, IM SO SORRY I HAVE TO BLOG

TOMORROW !

OR MAYBE THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW!

MY EYES ARE SO FREAKIN HEAVY !

REALLY.

I'LL MAKE IT UP TO YOU!

SORRY HORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
^.^

areeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep, what happened?

im so so so so sorry also ):

gawd, my life's a mess.

I'm done trying.

2008-09-26T15:32:00.002+08:00

I'M DONE TRYING.

I'VE TRIED AND I'VE TRIED.

AND IM DONE TRYING.

IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT ANYMORE.

BECAUSE IT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU.

IT NEVER DID.

And its okay. But the hardest thing is knowing when to give up. There are just certain people who aren't meant to fit in my life, no matter how badly i want them to. And sometimes, i need to put the past behind. I need to forget everything i've ever felt inside. My thoughts, my feelings, the saddest moments. Everything that was ever there because i can't get hurt by the person who just doesn't care. I'm fine. I'm a strong chick whose keeping my stuff in line even when everything's messed up, i'll still manage to say the words, " I'm fine" .

BOO !

2008-09-24T17:51:00.003+08:00

Hello fellow earthlings! *waves* :D

You can already imagining me with my big smile and teeth showing. Lol. Okay, sorry. I'm bored. Anyway, i so wanna change my blogskin but that can't happen. Cause apparently theres something wrong with either my own laptop or the blogskin's page or system. Im also not quite sure. Ahh, whatevs.

So, tomorrow is my Oral and the next day is English Paper 1. Actually, im not so worried about English as i know thats the only subject im good in. But the other subjects = danger! And the amazing thing is, im so calm about it. So calm that exams are almost nearing and that i havent revised one single damn thing. And yet, still so calm. Amazing, aye. All my friends have started revision and ive not. So much for setting a good example. Being a vice-chairman also sucks. People expect more from you just because you're kinda like a 'role model' in class. Grrr. And Reppy has a test tomorrow. So, i dont wanna disturb him by calling or texting him. It would've seem that im selfish. So, i'd rather not. And to make things even worse, i hate those little voices in my head. __

Its been a long time since we've chat or smsed.

Now im beginning to know why im missing you so much.

Well, i hope you'll be okay with her from now on.

And no matter what happens i'd still care for you.

i miss youuuuuuu !

2008-09-22T17:18:00.004+08:00

Mood: HUNGRY like shit !
Music: Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat - Lucky.

Im hungry. Im hungry. Im hungry.

Like seriously. Its like an earthquake in there. And i don't know what mommy made. Hopefully, its something yummy. Another like 25mins siooooooool. Grrrrr. Im basically doing nothing apart from chatting and looking at the clock every now and then. __

i miss you, grrrr.

2008-09-20T01:06:00.023+08:00

Mood: Sleeeeeeepy ! And excited ! :D
Music: Pink - So what.

Went Geylang with Efa first. Once reached, me and Efa got teased alot by the guys there. Like, seriously. One sang to us, another one called us, another whistled at us and there's a hell lot more. I started to become scared. No, seriously. I was scared. Anyway, i don't wish to elaborate about that. So, we went to the Banquet at Geylang and met up with Diy and Fie. While waiting to breakfast, i was kinda terpikat at this guy. Gawd, like fuhyoooooo. And the thing was, he noticed me noticing him. Baek purrrr -.-

Anyway, after breakfasting we walked around Geylang. Soon, everyone was getting bored of seeing the same old stuffs. So, we planned and planned. And we end up going to Cityhall. To be specific, Marina. Thats when the camwhore started. After taking pictures, the boys came. Zach, Ah Wat, Ajii Star and the rest. Forgot who already -.- Then, we lepak at steps, took somemore pictures. Then, me, Efa, Diy and Fie left the place and went home. So while taking the mrt, Efa was soooo high. We started taking pictures of each other and laughing our ass off. Trust me, people around us were so angry. We made a hell lot of a noise with just two people. Like whaaart. Smpi mat2 dlm mrt pon tgok. Tsk tsk, Efa Efa. ^^

Yeah, so thats how my day ended. And i guess, im going Geylang AGAIN tomorrow, to breakfast with that bloordy minahwep of mine.

And so sorry for the excessive pictures.
Just scroll down, already ! And mind my face, i was high then :@

Everyone's been through it, one way or another.
What you're going through does not make any exception.
i went through just to get you noticed.
But did it worked? No.
You end up going after another girl.
A girl who don't want you anymore.
And boy, you did left me hanging.
And now, you know how it feels like.

Chatting?

2008-09-19T15:43:00.004+08:00

Mood: Hungry, tired.

Music: Matchbook Romance - Tiger Lily.

Im bored. Oh, im going Geylang later with Efa and people and we're gonna breakfast there. Hopefully, we'll get seats. Lol. ^^ Anyway, i'll update later when i come back. So, right now doing nothing, staring at ceilings. And chatting.

ohmagawd, when i close my eyes, i saw you.

i miss you<3

Liar, panties on fire.

2008-09-17T17:48:00.003+08:00

Mood: Jealousy.
Music: Demi Lovato - This is me (Acoustic Version)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR MUMMY ! :D
May all your wishes come true. And i hope you can be there all the time when i grow up, each year. Cause you're the only one who can get me outta the mess im always in. You're the one who understands me.
I love you, mummy !
And this is so not needed in this post, but it has to get out.

At one point of time, i was very high and was in a good mood. After seeing what i saw, my whole mood turned 360. Now, i get your motive. Now i finally know who you are. I might not say much. Hence its not obvious, but i do care for him. And yes, i don't say much about him. So, you're taking it as a sign of weakness from me. Its okay, you don't have to take pity on me. I don't need your fake sympathy. I really need to get this out. People around me are just so ignorant, seriously. Also, if i don't talk or smile at him, it doesn't mean i don't care for him. And hell yeah, i have a right to be jealous. He is someone i know. But right now, he was someone i once knew. And i know you're enjoying this. You may be my friend, but that doesn't stop me from saying what i want to say. I don't hate you. Hate is too strong of a word. I just don't like you anymore.

Besides, he have her. Why the hell he need me for? I know, i'll just make his life more miserable anyway. But its okay. Why don't you just go with him and have a happily ever after life, together. I'll pretend i don't mind. And i swear, i won't ask another question to you anymore. Believe me.

What a rotten day.

Redlight district.

2008-09-15T09:18:00.009+08:00

Mood: Sickening.
Music: Tokio Hotel - Ready, Set, Go.

Saturday.
Was actually supposed to met Efa and the rest to go to Geylang. But Efa cancelled it the day before. Then, Arep called the next day to follow him and buddies to Geylang and from there to Cityhall. But i was particularly lazy. So, i rejected and he was disappointed. Sorry, boyfriend! ): So after breakfasting i was kinda in the mood to go out. (!) So i then met Cannibal at Mangosteen. But before meeting her, i was so amazed, shocked even, to see many people at the park. Even Civil Defence guys were there. Then it hit me, that day was the Lantern Festival thingy. But seriously, it was exceptionally crowded that day. We even saw some familiar faces like Tristan, Kelly, Shaffree, Farhan and the rest which im so lazy to type. And i miss Kelly siooool, so long since ive last saw and talked to her. So, catched up with them for awhile. Then, me and Cannibal quickly and without hesitation left the damn park. Then, off we went to interchange. Slacked at Tampines, where else?

Sunday.
Nothing really happened on Sunday. Just talked on the phone with Arep for 3 hours. D: Actually, i wasn't aware. Then, my sister started nagging and nagging. I know why she wanted to use the phone for - Calling her boyfriend -.- Then i glanced at the clock and my jaw dropped siooool. The amazing thing was, i wasn't aware that, that 3 hours passed so soon :@ So, thats what happened when you talk on the phone with Arep. Nyeeeeeeh.

Monday.
I went to school. Hurraaaaay ! -.-
End of story.

I cry for the time that you were almost mine,

I cry for the memories I've left behind,

I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new,

I cry for the times I thought I had you

So how you wanna settle this then? Actually, y'know something? I'd rather drop everything against you. Its really a worth of my time. I don't think it'll change anything. I don't think it'll change you. Cause that is really who you are. And what you do makes who you are. Well then, my job here is done.

SLEEPY SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !

2008-09-13T01:42:00.004+08:00

Mood: Sleepy like shit.
Music: Chris Brown - Fallen Angel.

Im tired. Just came back and im tired and sleepy. Im not sure why im updating in the first place. Why not i get on with it already.

Today was kinda The Slacking Day for me -.- After bowling and after breakfasting, i quickly washed up and out the door, i was. Went to meet that Cannibal of mine. Then, we slacked at Mall and had desserts at Swensen. None of us really wanted to go to town today. So, today was strickly Tampines area only. So, i guess town is tomorrow then.

After that, we went behind stage and lepak since stage was bustling with people. Saw a number of familiar faces there also. And oh, saw Wawan* again. Again. -.-
Anyway, we slacked there till 11.30+. We said goodbyes and then i went to Bedok and met up with Zal and Reppy. And guess what? Sie Arep tuu, was extremely sweet today. Wonder why..
Well, well. Guess what they were doing there? Skate. So, i slacked with them till the rest came. Then, slack slack. And now im at home, sleepy and tired and updating my damn blog :@

Eyh, don't go around saying shit stuffs that aren't meant to be said. Or wasn't even brought up in the first place. What are you trying to prove by using other people's name to cover up your wrong doings? Did something wrong, then fix it. Deal with it. But you don't go around spreading rumours about something i didn't do. But actually, it was something you did. And aye, you have a way of handling things.
Don't worry, two can play your game.

2008-09-11T09:34:00.002+08:00

Mood: Hungry.
Music: Yellowcard - Ocean avenue.

Im hungry and bored and pissed off. Again.

Anyway, its only 9.38 and im already hungry. Amazing. So, ive been striped off my rights to use the laptop during weekdays. Oh come on, FYE are around the corner and ive done no revising yet studying. What an achievement. Been slacking alot lately, and the thing is i dont care. But 100% when i get back my results, confirm i'll be regretting. But ive got to do at least SOME studying. Dammit.

i dont get you. first you said A, then the next you say Z. weird.

2008-09-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

Mood: Pissed.
Music: The Academy is ... Summer hair = Forever young.

Well well, what do you know it? Tomorrow's school. ^^ What can i say? I havent yet stepped in the building and im already pissed. I can bet you a thousand bucks that tomorrow im gonna be one of the many victim of the principal's speech. Then im gonna face the teachers and their naggings. And and, there's more. I havent yet TOUCHED my homework. Wow. What an achievement. ^^ Well, i can safely say that im dead-meat tomorrow. Aaaaaaaaaaah.

Fxck school. Seriously.

And to you, im over you. Dont worry. Just go and live your bloordy life with her and i'd never want to see your ugly skanking face again! I cant accept the fact that you're happy with her, when im not happy. Just seeing you with her makes my blood boil. I dont know why im saying bad things about you when in actual is that i fxcking miss you boy! Oh well, i cant sit around and rot all day thinking about you. Gosh. And oh, i definitely take back what i said about the ugly skanking face thingy. ^^

so what can i do huh?

2008-09-05T02:09:00.006+08:00

I don't know why i think about you. I try not to. Cause i know, you don't think about me at all. But whats the harm aye? Boyfriend keep on telling me to forget you. And to start thinking about him instead. But, can i? I want to think about you. But the more i'll do it, the more berserk i'll go. Maybe boyfriend is right, i should start thinking about him. But i know, that still can't stop me from thinking about you. So yeah i guess, the only way is to forget you. It might be fast. I think of you one day, then the next, i want to forget you. But why should i wait and wait if i know you won't do nothing? Its killing me, but not you. And i don't blame you, cause you don't know. And now im online, and you're nowhere to be found. Also, i don't know why i care so much if you're online or not. I don't even know why im feeling like this. And, its all because of you. You made me like this. And the funny thing is, you don't know.

i miss you, yet again.

There's this other thing that happened today. And it was 2.15+ in the morning.
I don't know what to say. Speechless. Bear with me, its kinda long.

§♠FARIS♣§© says:
hey der
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
mind 4 a mitup?
says:
huh?
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
yup
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
mit u nw at ur place?
says:
lol. why?
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
haha
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
'we kinda of bored
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
dats all
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
u mind?
says:
we?
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
me n my fwens
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
cn cn cn
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
hehe
says:
i dont know uh. want to sleep soon.
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
oh alar
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
so u cnt ar
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
i dun mind dropping down 2 ur place..
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
kite sahur 2gther ke pe
says:
hahahah.
says:
serious eh?
says:
or you just kiddin?
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
im serious
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
so cn?
says:
nah, i dont think can.
says:
sleepy ah.
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
hmm
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
k lar den
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
go n gt a gd slp den
says:
hahha. okay.
says:
sorry aye.
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
itz ok
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
cume mcm boring je skrng
says:
oh, go someone else house la. hahaha.
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
pe saje jek bdk nie
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
i ingat tad nk rompak umah
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
u*
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
haha
says:
rompak rumah sape?
says:
me?
says:
huh? lost uh.
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
haha
§♠FARIS♣§© says:
jk jk je
says:
oh. hahaha. terkejut siollxz
says:
hahah.

The conversation is not over yet, but just i just decided to end it there.
Speechless right? Wow.

Fxcking hectic day. And guess what, im sick. wow.

2008-09-01T00:46:00.006+08:00

What can i say? Baybeats was alright. There isn't a band to skip, hop, jump or die about. But some bands were extremely awesome. Like The Oslo Castaways were totally hitting the roof off. Anyways, met Myra at about 5.30 at Cityhall and we headed to Esplanade. And i also thought we were late -.-, cause it started at 5.30pm. Actually, was supposed to go on Sat. But, i was so totally not in the mood and Tampines was raining. So, instead we went to the Sunday one. Then, we watch the first opening act, which was AnnaJudgeApril. Of all the songs they performed, the last 2 songs were the best. Talking about best songs, Sourgrapes is the best! The vocalist voice is so awesomeee! People were actually moshing during one of their songs. I can't remember which one. ^^ Morning Utopia was also cool. And there were others but im currently too lazy to list down one by one. In addition, im fucking sick sia. Wonderful. And im still gonna fast tomorrow, but i dont think i'll take sahur in the morning. I know myself, i won't get up.

Anyway, me and Myra was at Powerhouse when we saw Alep and Has. At first, i was kinda shocked to see them. Then, when Sourgrapes finish performing, Alep and Has wanted us to follow them lepak with the rest. Like Aidil, Yanyan, Ikal, Khai and Dol. We all sat across Powerhouse near the river. Dangxz! I forgot what to call it. Shitz. Anyw, we sat across Powerhouse till 9.45 to watch the Australian band, Jebediah. They were really rocking also! Then at about 10+ we left. Took the long route to Mrt Cityhall. Walked past the bridge. Then, after like 30mins we reached the damn MRT. Like what the hell? So, me and Myra parted and i went home with the guys. And mind you, it was WAAAAAAY past my curfew. *gulps* And shocking, i didnt get any lecture or scoldings at all. Just the usual, " Why so late ah? " Thats all. Funny sia. hmm.

And oh i forgot, i saw Wawan. Nyeeeeeh. Look so different. And hell yeah, he looks better outside. ^^ Actually, didn't want to tegor him. But there was something about him that made me want to tegor him. Okay weird much? If you don't understand, nemind. I don't understand either.

And oh, before i end this, pictures will be up by HOPEFULLY tomorrow. hopefully, i repeat!

Okay, pictures are up. Sorry for the delaaay. There's more, but too goddamn lazy.
THE CRAMPS ARE FXCKING KILLING ME !

no use.

2008-08-30T01:52:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna update tomorrow. I think. Okay bye.

shitxz.

2008-08-28T17:16:00.002+08:00

Mood: Scared and shy.
Music: David Cook - Always be my baby.

Dangxz. Tomorrow is Teachers Day celebration. Shit. Then i have to go back to my primary school. Even more shitter :l

and again.

2008-08-24T22:07:00.010+08:00

Mood: Content.
Music: Miley Cyrus - 7 things.

Nothing happened today so i'd better post bout yesterday then.

Saturday.

It was such a hectic day. Met up with Efa first below my block. Then we were supposed to meet Myra and people but they postponed the time till evening. So me and Efa just stopped by Starbucks and MCD. Then, around 7+ we met Myra and her boyfee at Cityhall. Ohmagawd. I miss Myra siollxz. Its been long since we last hung out. Anyway, we went to MCD Marina and chilled there while Myra and her boyfee ate icecream. Nyeeeeh. And all that time, i was desperate to go to the toilet. DESPERATE, i tell you. And Efa also wanted to go to the toilet. ^^ Lawl.

After all that, we met with Myra boyfee's friends, Farahin and his friend. And i could still remember the way Farahin came up to me. Hahah. " Eh, i know you!" Rofl. And yes indeed i know him. At first he was familiar, but i couldnt remember his face. And then, the fireworks start. It was awesome, But after a while it seems like it wasnt nice anymore. Mcm dah jelak gituk y'know. Anyway, Marina was like crowded with people. Serious shit sia. I saw many friendster peeps. Such as Aminah, Fifi, Tiqa, Farihin included and many more. But can't really remember them. But yesterday wasn't that fun. And i guess its because, it was raining like hell and i wasnt in the mood. But of course, i was glad to be reunited with Myra again. Cheyy. Like real eh. ^^

Called you today. But you dint pick up. So stop saying that i never called you. You know that aint true. You know that. And instead of picking up my calls, you pick up hers. Until now, you know i never ask questions. And i still won't. You don't have to worry about that.

i look like a stupid eediot here ._.

Go to hell.

2008-08-20T21:43:00.003+08:00

Mood: I feel nothing.
Music: Madina Lake - Pandora.

I feel like im dying inside. Anyway, im back. Unfortunately, they took my computer. But in exchange i got a laptop. They didnt gave a laptop but my dad bought it instead. But there's always a disadvantage. I'm only allowed to use it during the weekends. And by weekends i mean, SATURDAYS only. Like what the hell. But i know its for my own good. And i'll get to enjoy the hols later when nothing and no one can disturb me. So for now, i gotta suffer. Also, i'll try to sneak and use the laptop when no one's around.

I wanna change my skin. Getting kinda bored with it already.

They're starting to get on my nerves. Trying to just be friendly and pretend that doesn't affect me. But how can i they're doing it exactly infront of my eyes? Anyhow, i don't really care anymore. I don't care if you wanna do this or do that or die or live. Its your life anyway, innit?

Always bout you, bby<3

Billabong dude<3

2008-08-10T03:42:00.002+08:00

I'm back. So much for not blogging anymore. Lawl.
Anyw, Happy Birthday S'pore. Its actually already 3.38 am. So i guess, it should be belated?

So, i spent my day going to NDP today. Actually, made plans earlier to go Marina and watch the fireworks. But last minute, my aunt had extra tickets to watch the NDP. And there wasn't a choice anyway. So i just went for it. And and, at first i didn't know there'll be guys around. Cause most of them would go to Marina. But surprise surprise ! I saw a number at NDP. So what else? Cuci mate laa. Aper lagik? Lawl. Uhm, overall the fireworks was the best ! It was so beautifulllllll. I was actually swept off my feet while watching the fireworks. It was awesomeeee! Anyw, the dissappointing part was the funpack. I expected more stuffs in it. Well, today was kinda fun i must say.

From all the dudes i saw. This one, caught my eyes.
That dude at NDP with the blue Billabong cap.♥

Go ahead and say whatcha wanna say.

2008-08-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

DEEEEE, I MISS YOXZXZ LIKE HELL ! D:
BY THE WAY, ITS OKAY. TKYAH FEEL GUILTY LA BABE. lol.

Remember my previous post i said that, its gonna be my last post? Guess what, the people who's gonna take my computer, have decided to give me another day. I guess its basically because i kinda begged and showed affection for the computer. lol? Oh comeon, if someone takes away something precious away from you, you'll do whatever it takes to get it back right? Im in that kinda situation right now people. Pardon my semangat-ness. (!) Anyway, since they given back my comp ( even for A day ), what else, i'll blog then.

The past weekend.
2nd was my birthday and 3rd we celebrated at a chalet. Believe it or not, during the party i didn't feel so excited. Instead, i felt a mixture of sadness and happiness. I'm not sure why the feeling but im guessing i know. Anyway, Chia came first to the chalet. lawl. And her present, is so the cute. Hahaha. From then, more people came. Fadhli and Ab liked the chicken wings. Especially, FADHLI. sheesh. Hahaha. Keep on asking for more and more and more. I would love to tell you how many he ate, but i lost count. D: And, i was actually surprised when i saw Hardy. Its not that i didn't invited him. Everyone can come down. But its like .. ahh tkper la. Lawl.
Plus, Rafie and Aidil were so the lazy to take their food. (!) Maybe they were malu or like lazy. I don't know. Hahah. So of course i took it for them. No matter what, they're still my guest. D:

For me, the best part was when Arep and his friends came. But the bad thing was, everyone by then went home. I scolded Arep for coming late. Lawl. But the best thing was, my family kinda bonded with Arep, Wan, Awie, Lyn and the rest. We ate, laughed and some were even pissed. hahaha. During that time only i felt like i was accepted there. It takes alot of strength and confidence for me to REALLY feel accepted with anyone. People think im okay with people. Thats true, but you don't really know what im feeling inside. With others, its like im feeling im not supposed to be there. With or without me around, it doesn't matter ya'know. So go ahead and say what you wanna say. That what im feeling with them. Hence, the jauh-ness. lol. But seriously speaking, i don't care anymore. Especially her. I'm 100% sure she's enjoying this inside. Just like a chameleon with a million outer looks. So slowly, i'm gonna back away from them. And i am already.

The end.

2008-08-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

Mood: Excited yet Sad.
Music: Boys Like Girls - Thunder.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
Fifteen years of living. Both contains happiness and also sad and torturous times. Its 11.10pm now. In another 50mins time, the period is going to be over. All im asking for, is for my life to be different. Of course, different in a good way. I want things to take a turn. Believe it or not, i haven't yet make my birthday wish yet. I don't have much time left. Today moved fast as i was having fun. I keep on thinking on what i wanna wish. But the feeling is not there yet. I don't know why. But i promised myself to make a wish before the hand strikes midnight. Its 11.15pm now. I'm indeed rushing for time as i can't use the computer that much today. I have up to 11.30pm to use the computer. In a way, im excited for the party my parents have put up for me tomorrow but also sad. Sad for actually, no reason. And excited, cause everyone should be excited on their birthday right? I just hope the party tomorrow goes smoothly and everyone leaves with a smile on their faces. And hopefully, i'll be able to enjoy tomorrow's party. With a big grin, from ear to ear.

I'm afraid this may be my last post for this blog as my computer has been taken away from me. And hell no, its not my parents. They'll never do that. Of course, i'll enjoy blogging even though its not often i update. I hope i get to blog again and enjoy doing that. I will find ways to blog. It'll take long. But one day, you'll see another post from me again. God Bless you people reading this as you have the time to read my nonsense. Live your life as you want to. Not because you're told to by someone else. Right now, i'm living my life no matter how tough or good it can be.

Doesn't end here.

2008-07-30T16:30:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired.
Music: Coldplay - Violet Hill.

Hopefully, everything is gonna be fine for daddy. He gotta pull through it. I don't care, he must.

Anyway, today in school was kinda intense. I wasn't able to concentrate in class. Maybe its because of daddy. Adding to it, my class got scolding like, every now and then. Well then, whats next huh? At one point i was really not in the mood, smpai i skipped the last two periods. And nowadays, im feeling really low. I will feel high once im outta school. I don't find school as my second home at all. Its just a place to me. And especially the teachers.. gawd, i don't know what else to say bout them. So instead, i'd better not get in their way and just do my own business and pretend that they don't mean anything to me. Which actually, they don't. At all.

I'm sorry. I know i said i'll try. Bear with me ayte. Just for awhile. Remember our promise? You know, ily. Stay with me, love.

He saved me.

2008-07-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

Mood: Content.
Music: Kat Deluna - In the end.

I'm sleepy. Anyway, today nothing interesting happened. School and more school. D: Actually, i got by today by msging MrSlack and Fifie. If it wasn't for Slack, i don't know how i could get through the day. Seriously. Hahaha. Alryte. I wanna knock off.

That skater dude.

2008-07-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

Mood: Very sleepy and its only 11.08 D:
Music: Forever The Sickest Kids - Woah Oh.

I've changed my skin. And the skin was made long time ago. And i always use new skins. Rofl. Anyway, i don't know why but this skin has like made an impression on me. I saw it like months back but didn't wanna use it. Now then, i used the skin. Weird much? Kay.

Back to topic. Its like im having a hard time to update my blog. Firstly, i can only use the computer during the weekends. And sometimes during the weekend, im too lazy to update. So as to say, i don't know why im keeping a blog for nowadays. I still wanna keep it, but damn too lazy to update. Seriously.

Peeps. Something to keep up on. I have a thang for this skater dude. Damn, he swept me off my feet. Now, im afraid to fall in love. damn it.

Hatred.

2008-07-14T19:07:00.003+08:00

Mood: Hatred.
Music: Puddles of Mud - We don't have to look back now.

There's only one feeling to describe me right now. That is, hatred. Right now, i feel like i wanna punch or kick or scold or smack someone in da face. Just because of them. They spoiled my day. I was waiting for it actually. When i was called out, i knew i was gonna get it. It was just a matter of time. Now, i have nothing else to say or defend. Everything is out in the open. The hate is there and its growing every day, whenever i see her face. Like i said, the hate is there. She's aware i dislike her. And i don't wanna care anymore. I won't loiter in school or spend my time there anymore. Its like, it once used to be my home. Now, its just a school to me. Just a place where i study. And gosh, that was the longest lecture i'd ever had. It was like around 2 hours straight D: Sometimes, you never know what could happen even though its right under your nose.

Dear friend, you only saw me with him once. You're well aware that he's my bestfriend. No use fighting or making grudges with him. A, you know me better than anyone. Sometimes, i say things that i don't actually mean. But because of my anger, the nonsense comes out from nowhere. I hope i can make it up to you. And right now, i'm trying. Love, Mellysa.

Individual.

2008-07-10T13:24:00.003+08:00

Mood: Can't wait to get out of school !
Music: Chris Brown - Forever.

Kay. I'm now at the Computer Lab. Doing practically, nothing. Anyway, after hearing that piece of news. I'm pissed with her. I was actually thinking of confronting her. But, its no use. We're just gonna end up fighting till we die. I don't wanna add water to fire. So, go to hell with her. I don't care what she wanna do with her damn face.

Arepppppp.
You made my day :D

Sleepy siaaaaaaa !

2008-07-06T02:11:00.002+08:00

Mood: Very sleepy.
Music: James Blunt - High.

Right now, im watching mteevee. But i wanna tuck into bed. Its like the bed is calling me. Anyway, im gonna take my mind off the bed.
There is something going on with my darn Samsung player. I can only listen to one side of the earpiece. Should be both, but i can only hear one blasting out. The other, dead silence. I keep asking myself this question. " Is it the earpiece problem or the player? " So i went to Courts. The place where i first bought it. Instead, they bloody transfer me to go to Samsung place thingy. When i asked where it was, i dont even know where that place is. But the thing is, i have the bloody warranty thingy. I dont wanna travel far. Nowadays, im busy. So, how? Sheesh.

When its over, its over.
Whats done, is done.
There's nothing else to do, Arep.

No food.

2008-07-02T21:52:00.002+08:00

Mood: Hungry. Very hungry D:
Music: Armor for sleep - Hold The Door.

I'm so hungry. Sheesh. There's nothing at home that is edible. Come to think of it, im actually kinda sleepy too. D: Taggers will, hopefully be replied tomorrow. No mood to reply you guys. Sorry.

Arep, if you're reading this, call me asap.

Marina Sq.

2008-07-01T19:13:00.007+08:00

Mood: Sad.

Music: Eminem - Mockingbird.

Hello. Its been longggggggggggggggggg siaa. I looked at the last time i'd post and i was kinda stunned at how long its been. This is, of course school's fault. Because of school, i can't use the comp as how i used to, during the holidays. Only on weekends lagik D: Right now, i'm sneaking to use the comp. My parents are both out, thats why. So, sorry if i ain't updating this blog. I'll try my best to update as possible. Even if it means sneaking behind my parents back. D:

Saturday.

Anyway because of Efa, i had to post about last Sat. Its been three days ago (!) but im still gonna post about that day.

Firstly, i met Efa, Helni and Chia. Off we headed to Bugis. We turned and turned around. After turning around, i think i suggested to head to Penin. And all four of us thought that, Penin was at Bugis area. So like i said, we turned and turned. But still Penin was not found. Then, as desperate like helll, i started asking people for directions or where it was at. After that, someone told us that Penin was at City Hall. Abeh, semuer muke stoned siaa. Since, Helni and Chia don't have money to take Mrt, we walked to Esplanade. D: Peh panas ! I'd actually thought we'd be lost or something siaa. Tapi, Efa perrr yg bawak kiter ke Esp. Hahaha.

So, we just slacked at Marina steps till Efa friends arrive. Unfortunately, Chia & Helni needa go home. So it was just me and Efa jek. And soon after, Efa friends arrive. We changed places from steps to slope instead. We chatted and chatted. I got new friends ! Fai, Atiq, Wawa, Zaza and the rest were soo the gerekkkkkkkk ! Meet again kay? As usual, there was a fight at Ms. I wanna elaborate further but am scared my parents suddenly arrive home. So, im out. Hopefully, i'll be able to update again.

Inactive.

2008-06-24T18:23:00.002+08:00

People, i won't be blogging for the time being cause of school :l I'll blog when i have the chance to. So, im gonna be inactive for awhile. But keep the tagboard alive yeah? Thanks :D

Tiqaaaaa bby :D

2008-06-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Mood: Content.
Music: Mig Ayesa - She loved.

Today was a day, in a long time that i had proper money in my hand. Not just the usual $2 or $4. Proper money. It may not be alot. But at least its enough for me. Enough for me to at least, eat outside for once. Anyway, met Tiqa after a long time. I was around her area, so just decided to drop by. Surprisingly to say, even after a long time, i kinda miss her.

Sorry for the very short post. No damn mood to type or do anything. By the way, taggers will be replied tomorrow.

Boy like Girl. Girl like boy.

2008-06-18T00:38:00.003+08:00

Mood: Hungry.
Music: Jonas Brothers - SOS.

Nothing interesting happened. Woke up at 5+pm then, went out with Nana, Sya, Fee and Fizah. As usual, im always late when it comes to meeting people. Anyway, we went nowhere and did nothing. Because none of us has the mood to go anywhere. But we just need one another around. Even if, none of us has the mood. We just hungout at Tampines Int. And and, on the way back home, i saw Zizie. From friendster. Actually, i kinda pictured her taller. Even she said, i looked tall :l In addiction, she looks different from fs. Very much prettier.

Okay. I was tagged by Aisyah, to complete her quiz. So, here goes nothing.

1. How long have you waited for someone you love ?
~* 1 year D:

2. What do you want to do right now ?
~* Sleep aaah. Tired semacam siaa. Fyi, 1.16am.

3. If there's a miracle , what would you long for ?
~* Money and lots and lots of them.

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes ?
~* Honestly, yeah. Sometimes, can't stand their attitude.

5. Where do you wish to die ?
~* Wow. A question i don't wanna answer.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ?
~* Like durhhhh.

7. What are the impossible things to do ?
~* Lazy to type.

8. Is there something which you wished never happened ?
~* Err.. no mood to remember.

9. Are you happy with your life now ?
~* No.

10. What if your crush asked you out ?
~* Over the moon?

11. What will you do when you feel bored ?
~* I'll do something. If there's nothing to do, i would find a reason to argue.

12. What feelings do you hate the most ?
~* Jealousy.

13. If you'll be seperated from your love one(s) for a period of time , what will be some things you'd tell them ?
~* Are you gonna cheat on me? D: lol .

14. What are you looking forward to this coming week ?
~* Hopefully, Junyuan would crumble down and there's no more school. Crazy much?

Instructions:
Tag 11 people , list them at the end of the post.
Notify them in their tagboard that they've been chosen.

1. Von.
2. Chia.
3. Myra.
4. Hafizah.
5. Efa.
6. Balqis.
7. Rashidah.
8. Syamirah.
9. Diana.
10. Rizz.

Should be 11 right? Hahahaha.

Happy Fathers' Day.

2008-06-17T01:20:00.002+08:00

Mood: High.
Music: Plain White T - Hate.

What is wrong with you, Arep? I just chat with some random guy. Is that so wrong? Hey, i won't let you ruin my day. You ruined many days of mine. I can't let you ruin today. Not today. I just.. just let me be. I don't want you in this state. When the real Arep is back, tell him to give me a call.

I'm so happy my daddy and me have worked things out. It might be too late to celebrate Fathers Day but i can't imagine no other way of how we're celebrating it. So Daddy, Happy Belated Fathers' Day :D I'm terribly sorry of what happened the last time we fought. I just.. didn't have the heart to say sorry. I'd rather have no other father except you, daddy.

Survey survey. tsk.

2008-06-16T02:04:00.002+08:00

Mood: Content.
Music: Linkin Park - Leave out the rest.

I was forced to complete this survey. Von forced me, that is. Anyway, i really find this survey pointless and uninteresting. I only did it for Von's sake. Okay. Nothing's much happening right now. Just chatting with MrSlack. A very sophisticated guy. And sometimes comes across irritating. But overall, he's cool. I'm having fun chatting with him :l Lol.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
~* We're done.

2. If you could have a dream come true, what would it be?
~* Money. Lots and lots of them.

3. What's your ideal husband like?
~* Reality check ! I'm still fifteen.

4. Is it more blessed to love or be loved?
~* Both, i guess.

5. How long would you wait for someone you really love?
~* Depends. If he's worth the wait.

6. If your secret crush is attached, what would you do ?
~* Moving on, next ?

7. Is there anything that made you unhappy these days ?
~* I'm brokeeeeeee :(

8. Is being tagged fun?
~* Whaaat?

9. How do you see yourself in 10 years?
~* Alive.

10. Who are the most important people to you?
~* My family & friends. And most importantly, Arep.

11. Would you rather be a single and rich or married but poor?
~* Single and rich. Actually, i don't really know. Its just options.

12. Whats the first thing you do in the morning?
~* Check my phone. Lol.

13. Would you be faithul in a relationship?
~* Hell yeah !

14. If you wanted to do two things at once, how do you decide what to do?
~* Don't do both.

15. What type of friends do you like?
~* Any type. I'm totally cool in meeting people from different walks of life.

16. What type of friends do you dislike?
~* I'm lazy to type.

17. Who is your idol?
~* Even lazier.

18. what's your favorite colour ?
~* Black.

19. do you have any crush now?
~* Jyeah. & I'm guessing he won't like me.

20. What are you listening to right now?
~* My sister scratching her damn head.

21. What are you wearing right now?
~* Tank top & boxers.

22. What time did you get up this morning?
~* 4.25pm. To be exact.

23. What would you like to do now?
~* Sleep.

24. What time is it now?
~* 2.28am siaaaaa.

25. Do you love yourself?
~* Jyeah !

26. There's no 40 questions right?
~* Ya think?

I wanna go back home mommy. I hate spore.

2008-06-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

Mood: Not fcuking pleased with myself kinda mood.
Music: Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife.

Today was like any ordinary day. Nothing interesting or special to blog about. Anyway, I woke up at about approximately 4.16pm. Shocker? Usually, by 2 or 3pm i'll be up. But the sleep was amazing. I know this is so randomly out of topic, but i gotta take this off my chest. Okay lol. "Idiotic freak & also the guy that i admire, you're online now right? Can't you nudge me or chat with me?" Sheesh. Okay, back to topic. After that, the usual routine like bathing, watch teevee, eat, watch teevee. Boring don't cha think? That's basically my darn life. Which is, until school reopens. And i don't want it to reopen. Can't all the schools in S'pore just breakdown or something? Back to the nagging & teachers. Oh yeah ! & I tell you i can't wait for the principal's lecture ! :l

Even though today is Fathers Day, i have nothing special planned out for my daddy. In addition, before he left for work, we had this big fight. I am not ready to elaborate on it. & Yeah, its all my fault alright? Its all my fault. Put the blame on me, daddy. Put the blame on me. Happy now?

I'll be there.

2008-06-14T01:28:00.002+08:00

Mood: Gloomy.
Music: Jesse Mccartney - Not your enemy.

Dear friend,

I know you do not agree with the choice I've made, I know you really care about me but I just want you to respect my decision. I really care about you too. I really love you. I know the path I've chosen may not be the best one but I really wanted it. I wished everything didn't happen, I really wish for everyone to be happy. I know that you hate the way I chose to go and I am really sorry. I know where our friendship stands, It's very important to me. I didn't take any orders from anyone, I made these decisions on my own. No one has influenced my choice, this is what I wanted. I knew something like this would happen and how you'd reacted but I still told you even though I had a choice not to because I really care about our friendship, I really do. I will also be there when you need me, I'll help you through whatever and whenever, I'll be there baby.

Love, Melissa.

MYRAAAAAAAAA.

2008-06-09T00:16:00.004+08:00

Myraaa is uber funnnn !
& She made my day yesterday.
Firstly, we met at Cityhall.
Walked around Marina Square.
Actually, decided to eat at Pizza Hut but then plan failed.
We thought they had the student meal thingy.
But it was only during the weekdays.
So paiseh aaaaah. -____-
Hahahaha.

After that, followed Myra to go meet her dad at Outram.
Then, went back to Cityhall.
Since both of us were hungry, we ate at Makansutra.
In addition, Myra kept telling me that her stomach were making noises.
Hahahah.
LOLOL.

Then, we wanted to lepak at the steps.
But it was like a pasar malam over thereeee.
Crowdeddddd.
So we sat at the fake grass patch with a loving couple. -____-

Overall, Myra made my day.
Its like i could relate to her.
& I noticed we had quite alot of things in common.
Hahahaha.
Myra is uber fun okaaaaaaay! :D

ohmygawd.
i saw him in the mrt.
he was looking at meeeeee.
D:

Finally.

2008-06-06T00:25:00.004+08:00

Everything's a blank now.
I see you online but i don't know what to do.
Our last conversation was a bummer.
I want to chat with you but always think twice.
& I end up signing out.
And i guess there's only one thing left for me to do.
Make a totally new email add.
Thats how i can forget you, i guess.

imy/:

2008-06-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

I can't say much to you anymore.
Why whenever we go out, you'll bring her along?
Even if she's not there, i feel as like she is there.
She will call whenever she can.
I don't actually care that much.
But come on! Every single day she calls?
I am truly grateful that you are honest with me.
But bby, isn't that too much?
I don't wanna lose you.
You know how i feel when she's there.
I try to befriend her but who knows what she's thinking.
Like i said, i don't wanna lose you baby.

Thanks for making my day, Fizah & Shidah :DDDDDDDD

Island Resortttttt~

2008-05-31T23:45:00.005+08:00

Hello Hello :D
I'm feeling so high right nowwwwww!
Not sure why -___-

Anyways, supposed to meet Chia and go to East Coast Island Resort.
Dee invited us to teman her over there.
THAAAANKS DEEEEE :D
Its her sister's 21st birthday.
But, Chia kinda cancelled last minute.
Luckily in time, i conferenced with Dee & Efa.
Nasib baek Efa bleh ikot.
If not, i'll be aloneeeee ):
THAAAANKS EFA :D
Anyway, met Efa at 4+ kt stage.
We needed to kill time so we head to Bugis.
& I even thought Bugis won't be crowded during that time.
But, padehal padehal.
Crowded like HELLLLLLLLL ~
And now, i want the light grey skinnies laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D
Gonna buy it soon. Hahaha.

After that, we left Bugis and went all the way back to Bedok Interchange.
And took 401 to Island Resort at East Coast.
The damn bus took 30mins to arrive saaaak.
Me & Efa was cursing all the way.
We were pissed siolllxz.
Somemore, we were already late.
The party would start at 7.
And we were still standing and waiting for the bus at Bedok Int. at approximately 6.44pm.
The journey to go there would take 30mins somemore.
So we were late.

Finally, we reached there.
The things i did there was ;
Wish Dee's sister happy birthday.
Eat :D
Take pictures.
After that, me & Efa left the party and went home.
Reached home at about 11 +.
Overall, today gerekkk laaaaaaaa!
Efa veryy the fun :D
Hahahaha.
Hopefully, going to upload the pictures tomorrow or the day after :D

Today is No Tobacco Day ehhhh?

2008-05-31T00:42:00.004+08:00

What a daaaaay.
Started off going to school at 10.30am.
D:
Nowadays, i usually wake up at about 3+pm.
So very the malas.
Had to go to school cause of an excursion.
Compulsory :/
An excursion to Changi War Museum Prison thingy. lol?
That outing really made me like sad.
Pity the S'poreans who went through WW2.
Can't blame the Japanese too cause they were taking orders from their head chief.
I'm crapping here right? :D

Then, was on my way home when Rafie msged me to meet them at strt sccr.
So i dropped by my house, left my things & headed out to meet them there.
Then i got the shock of my life when i saw someone who i know that i thought i didn't know.
Rafie dyed his hair to BLONDDDDDD.
I thought matrep maner siolllxz.
But the new colour suits him.

After that, went out with Rafie & Tristan and their friends.
Very cool people!
Then, Arep spoiled the day ):

PS:
Today is No Tobacco Day ehhhh?
damn.

Surprisingly shocking.

2008-05-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

Too lazy to post.
Going to post tomorrow.

And to Arep,
If you really meant what you said,
then, its over??

I'm sorry Arep.

2008-05-27T00:45:00.007+08:00

Okaay.

Met up with Chia, Helni and Nana.

Firstly, we didn't know where to go.

Then i gave this stupid suggestion to go to T3.

Surprise surprise, they all agreed.

Then off we headed to Terminal 3. weeeeeeeeee~

Once we reached there.. WOW.

All four of us CUCI MATE :D

Seriously, there was alot.

Yeaah, then we headed to Candy Empire.

O: There's alot of candy which are not being sold outside.

Like the premium ones.

Well, Chia bought this chocolate bunny thing.

And i bought this very long sour grape candy.

After that, we went to T2.

Surprise Surprise again, saw Aliff Aziz.

I didn't spot him at first.

Then Chia pulled us to a spot and told us that infront of us was Aliff.

The first thing i said was, "Ahhh yerr."

I didn't want to make myself too like " OMGGGG! ALIFF AZIZ SAAAAK!! EHH HI!"

-_______-

So instead, i just looked infront and walked away.

Actually, i kinda strut. LOL.

Andand, i didn't know Aliff would be sooooo tall.

Anyways, after all that i saw this cart for the luggage and whatnot.

Then i played around with it.

Chia sat and stood on it.

Took turns and such.

It was fun but hard stirring the darn cart around.

Surprise Surprise again & again, we weren't the only ones who were playing with the carts.

There's this 2 guys & a girl who were even worse than us.

The guys took the cart and played with it.

Up & down the kinda steep slope.

The place was quiet anyway.

The talk of the town?

I ran like sprint to the ladies while everyone was enjoying their time,

sitting around the open space.

I tell you, my hair was flyinggggggggggggg everywhere.

Arep,

I'm sorry for not answering your calls.

I don't know what to do now.

I'm sorry bby ):

2008-05-24T00:11:00.004+08:00

This picture was taken out of boredness. haha.
Craaaazy face right?

Okaay.
Today was Big Breakfast and then it was Junyuan Got Talent.
BB was very the kecoh.
Took pictures, roamed around.
It was hectic yaaw.

But for Junyuan Got Talent.
It was the best damn thing.
All of the participants had talent & even guts to go on stage and perform.
I can't even do that. Yet :D haha.
And and, the performances were amaaaazing.
Ayus sang soulfully.
Kamil danced like he was doing his thaaang.
And the rest were awesome.
I enjoyed the concert. weeeeeee ~

Then, it was Meet The Parents Session D:
I nearly died in there.
My mummy just went on & on & on & on about how she is terribly dissappointed with my results.
And she's not the only one.
I'm also dissappointed.
Everytime my mummy wanted to say something, her voice would rise and rise.
And i could tell you, practically everyone in that room could hear her.
D:
And the more she does that, the more i sank in my chair.
I noticed that, after my head was at the same level as the chair. LOL.
Yeaaah.
Then i went for my job interview :D

AARGHH.
why do i always think of you while i should be thinking of him?
but i'm sure you don't even think about me.

David cookkkkk :D

2008-05-23T00:33:00.004+08:00

YAAAAW!
DAVID COOK WON :D

Actually, i don't really care who won.
Cause i support both.
But kinda more on the cook's side. LOL.
Since Riyah didn't attend school today, she watched the "LIVE" telecast from US.
Then, she msg-ed Helni.
The message showed, " YAAAHOOOOOOO! DAVID COOK MENANG! YAAAFOOO! "
It was during maths lesson.
Then when Helni told me that David Cook won.
I jumped then hit the desk.
After that, i laughed. -_-
Everyone looked and tcher asked why.
I told him " Cherr, David Cook win laaaar! WOOOHOOO! "
He was even more shocked than i was.
His response, " Aiyaaa! But Archuleta sang more better than him. Sure not? "

Well, yeaaah.
Of course, David Cook won.
Even Simon apologised to him. LOL.
Then the part i went emotional was when Cook cried. I even cried :x
Its like he was a bartender before American Idol and now.. he's like a superstarrrr!
And, Quote from David Cook " Its all his fault, its all his fault. " Unquote.
The 'his' is David Cook's brother.

Moving on, tomorrow last day of schoooooool !
BIG BREAKFAST :D in the morning.
Then Junyuan Got Talent :D
Then Meet-The-Parents D:
sheesh.

gonna reply tags tomorrow.
sleeeeeepy :D
zzzzz'

Gift Carnival :D

2008-05-21T23:34:00.003+08:00

Okay.
School started with the student forum.
Seriously, some suggestions made from our students are pretty good.
Like why's the back gate opens for 20 mins then closes.
And yeah, i agreeeeeeeee.
If its close, then we have to walk one whole round. Waste time kaaan?
But also there was comments which conferm the teachers won't look into. Like..

Question : Why can't girls use multiple earstuds which are transparent?
Response : We don't want our school to be filled with ahlians. -_-

Question : Can use handphone during school hours.
Response : NO! [ haha!, direct answer siolllxz. ]

Yeah.
There were others but i've forgot.
Well, practically spent the whole day sms-ing *Superstarrrr.
Anyway, all of a sudden i saw students from Springfield Sec, Tampines Sec, Junyuan Pri and some other schools uhs.
Then i remembered there was the Gift Carnival thingy.
So instead of going downtown, we decided to just stay.
We watched people play floorball, captains ball, soccer and even watched people dance. LOL.
Suddenly, Rafie popped out from nowhere with Shafree.
Then Rafie wanted to CUCI MATE:D.
You guys know what it means right? Haha.
Yeah, he went after this girl.
Then when that girl turned her head, Rafie got to see her face.
After that, the first thing he said was "Siollll ahh. Muke pecah saaak!"
That was bad but he was right :x
Haha. I laughed like hell after thaat.

Then, Chia & Helni wanted to go home.
Sent my goodbyes to then i went off with Rafie, Ayus & Farhan.
We then met Inal and Agil.
Off we went to strt sccr.
Watched them play sccr till 7+.
Well, that was fun :D haha.
Then went home zzzzzzzz then online.

you don't know what you have till its gone.

Fire alarm drill -

2008-05-20T23:11:00.003+08:00

one heck of a day.

started when our whole school heard the fire alarm.

our principal, told us through the pa system that there was a fire at ..

well, i couldn't catch the rest cause my class was just noisy.

so, everyone was ordered to assemble at the field.

on the way going to the field, saw Tristan, Agil, Khai, Ayus, Inal and the rest.

actually, i didn't really know what was going on.

so, i asked Tristan.

and he said it was just a drill.

-__-

& i even thought it was real.

anyway, spent 30 darn minutes at the field.

me & my hair was roasted.

people around me was like cursing underneath their breaths.

i was one of them :D

they picked a wonderful time for the drill :/

the drill started before 5 minutes to our recess.

who wouldn't be mad right?

but i guess the drill was for how fast we could assemble incase of an emergency.

well, we took more than 15mins to get everyone settled down + the marking of attendance. lol.

after all that, went back home. changed then went out.

in addition, me & helni exchanged handphones for like 8 hours.

well, i had to msg 'Haz the Superstar'. so i used her fne.

then she took my fne to play games. since my fne has alot of games compared to hers.

anyway, me Chia & Helni went E-hub.

all of a sudden, i saw 'Haz the Superstar' . LOL.

concidence right?

one minute i was msging him & the next minute i saw him. O.o weird.

well, neither of us was brave enough to confront each other at first.

he even has the cheek of asking me why i didn't tegor him. LOL?

but at the end of the day, it was me who tegor him. hoho.

we talked. & talked.

& i found out that his voice is very the pelan.

i'd even asked him once or twice to repeat what he was saying. haha.

anyway, nice to officially meet you Haz the Superstar :D

wakakaka.

eh eh.

i saw my admirer :D

global warming.

2008-05-17T23:33:00.003+08:00

wah.
everyday's weather is starting to feel hothotheatt.
and i believe its global warming. sheesh.
okay.
im dead bored nowadays.
woke up today at about 3.34pm.
that is after receiving a text message from izzat.
if not i'll be sleeping till God knows when.
haha.
well yeah, thats basically it.
nothing interesting to post about.
cheers :D

if you wanna act like you're 2.
i'll act like im 1.
two can play the game.

amaaazing results :/

2008-05-16T22:54:00.004+08:00

okay.
i'd gotten my results back.
and not satisfied at all.
i'd just realised that this first semester i'm slacking too much.
i did not spend alot of time revising but instead, i'm on the computer.
i really want to keep reminding myself that midyears are not important.
but they really are.
that is why i must buck up and ace the upcoming end of the year exams.
well.
english was the only one subject which i did better than before.
i'd gotten 51/60 for paper 2.
14/20 for summary.
20/30 for my situational writing.
but i haven't got my composition paper yet.
so i'm just hoping for the best.
hopefully, at least for english, i want to get a distinction.
cause the rest of the subjects are just ..average.

other subjects which are dissappointing is history and science.
i have not yet mastered the skills needed for history.
added to this, there are alot of chapters to cover - in so little time.
anyway, the papers over and i just have to learn from my mistakes.
meanwhile for science, its a different story altogether.
honestly, i didn't study for science at all.
& i'd gotten 36.5/100 for it.
amazing eh?
but the one thing while i was checking my science paper is that,
the marker likes to put a BIG cross if there's a blank or a wrong answer.
a really BIG cross.
- preview below.

o.0 i still can't believe it.

2008-05-16T00:26:00.004+08:00

been very busy nowadays.
hopefully, gonna blog tomorrow.
cheers :B
oh ya.

DAVID COOK to finals babeh!

heyhey, whats wrong with my bby?
he's acting awfully weird nowadays.

i miss my dudeeeee. lol.

2008-05-12T21:05:00.003+08:00

omg.
im watching Bourne Ultimatum right now.
while blogging that is.
the movie's been long out & its already out on DVD.
haha.
but.
i wanna watch Prison Break 3 too.
that was after heikal reminded me bout it though.
thanks gyeah :B haha.

today was dead boring.
my life now is practically - eat bath read gossipgirl computer teevee sleep.
seriously.

all of a sudden.
i miss my charming dude.
LOLL.

i just want my bby back.

2008-05-11T22:40:00.009+08:00

AZMI AZMI AZMI :D

MEL OWN LERRRR.

the talk of the town katekan.
nyaha.
happy birthday bby!
i hope all your wishes come true.
& you get the girl of your dreams. [ ahem! ]
you keep pestering me lagik ehh.
and now its out to the open.
no more for me to keep lagik.
anyway.
today celebrated at east coast park.
kinda spank azmi's arse with my leg.
nyaha.
sorry bby :D
but, he still got me.
he ran after me & grabbed me okaaay!
& pin me down HARD.
so we wrestled.
i hell no didnt gave chance.
& he said "yelah, u kan pmpn. i kasi chance aaaah."
then he smirked.
& left me on the grass. -.- STUPID.
what a gentleman eh.

then, party party party.
im too lazy to describe every detail.
but unexpectedly.
there's gonna be another party for azmi.
but this time more grand i think.
SHAZWAN has the details yaww.
anyway.
so very sorry for no pictures.
excluding the picture above.
my friend sent me that picture, thanks SYAAAA.
my handphone all of a sudden blanked out.
i shook it.
even dropped it many times to get it back.
but its like ... dead.
maybe its the batt problem.
cause i havent been charging it.
the cause : EXAMS OVER!
haha.
eat, read gossipgirl, teevee, outings, sleep :D

ALSO.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

TO ALL :D

baby.
i wish you could feel how i feel.
its everlasting but painful.
painful to see those girls all over you.
you said we could get over it.
you said to not give them the chance.
but why is history repeating itself baby?
must i leave you because of them?
i just ...
i just want my baby back.
thats all.

Ace is one thing.

2008-05-07T12:12:00.000+08:00

finally, my nightmares over.
i just want to get history done with.
to begin with, the paper is likeeee hard.
especially SEQ.
i stared at the questions for like 5 minutes.
& we only get 1h 45 minutes.
so overall, i skipped 2 questions.
which is worth 18 marks.
OHMYGAWD.
haha.
honestly, i really want to ace history.
i must live up to my expectations.
not only mine, but also my teachers.
& it aint that simple, lemme tell you that.
hopefully, everything'll go well.
HOPEFULLLLY.

;AAAARRR<3
run baby run
don't ever look back
they'll tear us apart
if you give them the chance.

I want to spot him. idc :D

2008-05-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

went studying with Chia & Hazwani.

very very the kecoh!

haha.

went to Downtown East.

the newly built place.

its simple yet full of everything.

anyways.

got addicted to yogurts place.

i like the cookie crumbs thingy.

haha.

we studied at this privilaged place.

as what that woman told us.

anyway, hazwani became a member.

so an advantage for us too.

haha.

then, got to know with some chinese dudes.

who, apparently weren't as what i expected them to be.

they are friendly alright!

and fun. seriously.

haha.

then kinda exchanged numbers.

for future references.

haha!

then all of a sudden, my eyes went darting to this guy.

unexpected though.

since i can't do anything, let the eyes do the talking.

haha.

im not tryna say anything tauu.

but he kinda noticed me.

maybe its because i kept taking secretive glances at him.

im not sure though.

but its the past already.

if i spot him again, then .. its fate?

ROFL.

Love no moreee.

2008-05-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

The hole in my heart,

Is infected with thoughts of you.

If I could get you out, I might heal.

But when I think you’re gone

And I heal,

You come back

And tear me up.

The only vaccine

Is pure hate.

And that heals it.

But it also tears me up

Somewhere else.

So for now,

I’ll suffer from,

Heartache.

hey.

i miss you baby.

but i know i gotta stop.

Arep Arep Arep :DDD

2008-04-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

Bored, so i post.
My day went fairly well.
Lepak at street soccer with Adilah while Rafie & the rest play soccer.
Then had to go off cause i wanted to meet Arep.
We then went to Bugis.
I didn't bought anything.
But Arep .......
He like bought the whole shop.
Haha.
Goshhh.
Anyways.
Then had dinner at Bugis Cafe.
I didn't know it exist actually.
Cause' it was inside Bugis Street.
And it is always bustling with people.
So making it hard to spot the cafe.
But Arep brought me there.
THANKS BABEH.
Thats how my day ended actually.
I took pictures actually.
But i'm too tired to put it in my computer.
Too leceh larrrrh.
So either one of these days, i'll put the pictures up.

AND.
Not to forget.
ENGLISH LANGUAGE PAPER 1.
I didn't finish it.
Both my essay and letter-writing.
I stretched my essay like VERY long.
Cause' i enjoy reading novels.
And novels go on and on forever.
Till the last book.
That is why i describe more on the little details in the story.
I know i'm doomed.
Conferm lecture from my english teacher.
Aaaarghh.
It is a lesson for me actually.
Time management is VERY important.
Very important.

Anyways.
Tomorrow i'm going to watch 'We Will Rock You, The Musical"
Hope its going to be great.
:DDD

I don't want the picture to be circulated all over.

2008-04-20T15:36:00.000+08:00

It is exhausting indeed.
Yesterday, Chia, Nana, Nini and me went to the Youth Eco Concert 2008.
I was too tired to blog yesterday.
& Even so, i reached home late.
So i decided to blog today.

Got the tickets from my good good friend, Arep.
BTW Arep, i didn't see you there.
Where were you darl?

Anyways.
The concert started at 6pm.
It was held at Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza.
The opening acts of the evening were students from Tanglin Secondary School.
They made sounds from recycled materials like dustbins and stuffs.
It was cool yaww.
Then there was a fashion parade.
From recycled materials also!
Like the clothes they were wearing.
Example some were made from potato chips bags, tissues, plastic, paper and stuffs.

Following that, there was a dance performance by i-don't-know-who.
But it was amazing. Seriously.
Then Aliff Aziz, Hady Mirza, Darren Tan and many other singers entertained us.
Hence, the performance ended at about 9.15pm.
We sent off Nini at the MRT.
But Chia, Nana and me went off to explore Orchard Road, Scotts Place and Wheelock Place.

The night ended though kinda weird.
I was waiting for the MRT.
I was sitting btw.
When this European guy came towards me & asked that he wanted to take a picture with me.
He was darn clearly a freaking stranger.
But i was too helpless to do anything.
So he sat beside me without even asking permission to sit.
Then his friend took the picture.
omg.
Then it hit me.
He was fucking drunk.
I can clearly smell the beer he drank before.
Gosh.
I tell you. I was scared.
I got up and walked away from that seat and went off to another mrt door.
There's another weird part.
But lets just keep it like this for now.

Anyways.
Once we reached Tampines, we went straight to the 7-Eleven in interchange.
We bought the 2 gulp for $2.
The promotion thingy.
After that, me & Nana sent Chia off.
Then we walked home.
On the way home, guess who i saw.
Rafie & members.
Haha.
They were behind stage.
Gods knows what-the-hell-they-were-doing.
Then i walked past them on the other side.
I couldn't recognise any of them.
Durh, it was pitch dark.
Then someone called me.
Rafie.
I patah balek to where he was.
Then he wanted me to slack with them.
But it was already late & i was freaking tired.
Seriously.
So i ditched his idea of me lepak-ing with them.
& Headed home.
Haha.
What a weird day.

CHIAAAAAA.
THE DANCER IS MINEEEEE =DD

Baby, sometimes i wish i were a little kid again;
skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
- Arep, Sygku.

Melissa Nana Chia Umaira.

Nana and Umaira.

Take two.

Take three.

A hot dancer.

Take two.

Aliff Aziz.

Takashimaya Building.

I had nothing better to do.

Darren Tan.

Take four. Toilet =D

The Jazayeri's/

Take five.

Take six.

Tanglin Secondary school.

For love, you do whatever it takes.

2008-04-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

This was how my day started.
Planned to go EastCoast with Chia & Hazwani & other people.
But it didn't happen. Whatever.
Then went library with Shazlyn, Nana & Arep.
So we returned the books then makan.
Arep pandai2 bawak kite kt mane ntah.
Then that darn kedai tutop.
Kanasai.
So kite makan kt McDonalds at TM jek.
Then we lpak2 at Open Plaza.
After that, kite semue balek.
I'm forced to write this, BTW.
I MISS YOU AREP!

Once i reached home, Rafie called.
To lpak2 at CP.
I was actually fcuking lazy.
But for him, i turon uh.
There was Tristan, Shafree & Rafie.
Then we waited for Inal & Ayus.
Then we headed to bawah Ayus nye blok.
We then played at the fitness center.
And camwhored.
Haha.
Then we went to this place where the rest where.
Like Haikal, Hardy, Yanyan and others uh.
They were playing sepak takraw.

Then Rafie tkleh tahan tahan.
For some logical reason.
So we went all the way to Chai Chee.
The place where Muneera stays.
Rafie wanted to speak to her.
So he forced me & Shafree to come.
Once we reached, Rafie & Muneera talked.
Then me & Shafree was kinda left out.
And we hell no, don't wanna masok cmpr.
Haha.
So we layan each other.
Then about 10.45pm i reached home.

Mane drng tgok nie?

Shafree.

Shafree, Inal, Tristan & Rafie.

Rafie tgah emo-ing. Haha. =x

Nie step besar jek. Haha =x

I don't get it at all.

2008-04-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

I don't get him at all.
Whenever i try to give him up, I can't.
Because of something he does.
Please, don't get my hopes up.
I don't wanna feel like this.
Like jealousy and stuff.
Its no use.
I'm just throwing my tantrums and how i feel at people who cares for me.
I don't wanna do that.
If its puppy love on my side.
Then what the hell.
I'm wasting my time.
I'll move on.
Its not gonna be easy.
But i'll be alright.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIZAAA.

2008-04-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

First off, i want to say.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIZAAAAA !
Anyways.
Hafizah, Braim, Faten, Insyirah, Zaiba, Adilah, Chia, Efa, Hazwani, Suriyah, Nazilah & me,
kinda celebrated Fizah's birthday at Long John Silver.
We like waited quite long siot for a goddamn table.
Goshh!
I was already getting impatient.
But even so.
We found enough seats for all of us to sit uhh.
Then we ate.
Took pictures.
Laughed.

Then.
We went out to Open Plaza.
HAAAAH.
Kimaaak.
That was seriously fun sioll.
There's this thing kaan.
Which like up to 3 or 4 people bleh masok tauu.
Then it spins like crazy.
Not crazy like ETP.
But like it can really spin.
So then the others tried it.
But not me or Adilah.
Da lah Adilah tk akai shorts.
Haha.
But i did wore shorts.
But too lazy to actually try it.
& There were guys around =X
ANDDD.
Even Faten vomit sehh.
Not after that uh.
When she arrived home.
Unexpected eh?

After that, me & Efa shiok2 amek gmbr.
Then.
Semuer nk balek.
Not really balek uh.
But like go our seperate ways.
So.
Me & Adilah went to street soccer near stadium -
To meet Khai and friends uh.
Yarhhh.
Then I balek homee.

ANDDDDDDD.
Nazmi ruined half of my day.
Only those in my class know what he did.
This is what he did.
I was sitting behind him.
Then Haziq & friends were walking uh, past the corridor.
Then when Haziq & people were in view.
Nazmi fucking shouted " HAZIQ !!!!!!!! "
Amazing isnt it?
I didn't ask for it even.
Its like very the memalukaaan.
Even though i like him or not.
Its still embarrassing okaaay!
I was damn mad with Nazmi sehh.
But now okay2 uh.
BUT REVENGE IS DAMN SWEET.
RIGHT NAZMI?

Faten is on the floor. haha.

Gilerr sehh nie orangs.

That's the damn thing I was talking about.

Candid sioll! Adilah took. Without me knowing.

Efa & Chia. Cute kaan dorang? lol.

Melissa & Adilah. Camwhoring beb.

Sempat lagi ehh. Tpi mmng cute.

Mukerr cute.

Fiza open present.

Open somemore. lol.

Me & Efa. Muker ako selenge sioolll!

Leh nmpk tk?

Insyirah, Chia, Melissa & Efa =DDD

What a daaay.

2008-04-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

What a day.
Started off when Nazmi started disturbing me saying I'm short.
Stoooopid !
Obviously, he's shorter.
He's still not satisfied that i'm taller.
Gosh !
Haaah.
Anyway, tomorrow is health checkup.
We'll see who's taller =D

Then.
Watched rugby.
It was an ugly scene.
I don't know how to explain it.

Anyways.
After that, went home.
Then Ikal forced me to lpak with him.
I was like tired and sleepy.
Lagi2 ade homework seh.
Then he forced.
So I can't do anything.
So we met at CP.
Then we hung out.
All in all, it was fun hanging out with them lerr.

Alalalala. Maluuuuuu =D

Amek gmbr, tk taw delete. HAAAH.

Malboro, Polo & PSP coverr.

Aint it funny.

2008-03-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

What a day.
Went out with Nana, Erwin, Lyn, Shaz and Nysa.
Actually we were planning to go to Bugis.
Buttttt.....
We were lazy.
Then we ate at KFC.
This was actually one of the fun part.
I opened a chilli packet then it spilled on Shaz tshirt.
Haha.
He was pissed at first then he simmered down.
Who wanted to sit beside me?
haha.
Clearly not my fault.
But i still apologised tho.
Yeahh.
Sorry Shaz =D
Haha.

I still owe someone a phone call !
Shit.

I just dont get it.

2008-03-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

I dont understand you.
I'm was merely helping.
I don't think thats bad, is it?
In a form of words, i'm kinda looking out for you.
But.
I understand exactly how you feel.
If someone told me that RD is blah blah blah ..
Of course i'll be mad at the source of this rumour.
Who will not be?
But its okay.
I'm not mad at you.
At all.

Anyways.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUNEERA !
kinda last minute.
but i already wished her on her birthday.
so its no biggy. i think.
anyway, my present to Muneera is not compared to what Rafi gave her.
can't tell ya what is it.
go find out urself people.

shit.
i miss him already.
i wish i could carry your smile in my heart.
heh =D

Its over and done.

2008-03-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

its over and done.
finally.
i wasnt nervous at all.
but once i reached on stage.
woah.
i tried to slap my nervousness away.
i did it but it was of to no use.
i screwed up anyway.
but seriously.
our school was kinda the best.
& btw i was a guy character :D

okay.
i havent touch my homework yet.
this week was not a holiday for me. at all.
there's like science, literature, blah blah & blah.
& there's even maths.
i didnt even know there was maths homework.
its not because im lazy.
i had school activities.
ccas.
maybe other people who had the same situation as me,
but they did their homework.
well ...
okay.
BYE.

Step Up 2 The Streets.

2008-03-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

Step Up 2.
Its even better than the first one.
The lead actor is hawt alright.
The rain dance scene is damn solid.
I enjoyed it.
For those who have not seen it yet, its worth your money.
And even 10x more than your television.
And now.
I miss dancing.
Dammit.

& VON ; Eat will ya?
You want me to accompany you?
I caaaaaaaaan.
Eat yeaaah?

Nervous but not nervous. Get it?

2008-03-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

Nervous.
Im not.
But i should be.
Its kinda my first time acting a performance infront of people.
If excluding primary school days.
Anyway.
Im just surprised on why im not nervous.
I should be.
We'll see how alright.

And yeah.
Step Up 2 The Streets is gonna be premiering tomorrow.
So..
Iam all set to watch it.

Hey Von.
You die die want to watch right?
But cant cause of NCC Camp right?
Haha.
Too bad.
I'll tell you what happen in the movie alright.

Im baaaaaaaaack !

2008-03-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

and by the way.

IAM BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK !!!

yeaaah.
thats all :D

A day with Syafiqah and Muneera.

2008-03-11T22:16:00.001+08:00

Monday.

The only day i was free.

And also the only day i could go out with Von and Mun.

Cause this whole week im booked.

Either for holiday classes or cca or something else.

Anyway.

Mun waited for us for about 15 mins before Von & me came.

She was clearly pissed.

heh :D

The first damn thing we did was, we went to Food Culture and obviously ate.

And lemme tell you something.

Once eating with me, you cant stop laughing.

Anyways.
After leaving Food Culture, we went shopping.

When Mun shops, you can never leave.

She'll go to a shop & stay there for ages.

Then, we arrived at this shop.

Which i'll not name.

See, im sick.

So i had a tissue with me.

Then i wanted to discard it.
But there was no dustbin around.

So as usual Von gave me an idea.

" Letak dalam sini ah." she said.

She wanted me to put my tissue underneath all the rubberbands which is in the container.

So the next person who digs in and is looking for a rbbrband, would feel my tissue.
Of course i agreed.

It might not seem funny.

Im telling you, we had one heck of a laugh.

Anyway, toilet is a must.

So we went to the elderly toilet.

Cause firstly, the line was pretty long in the females toilet.

And secondly, the elderly toilet is huge.

We were in there for a solid 20 minutes.

And guess what we did ?

We took pictures.

haha.

After that, we went to the Tamp Library.

The most shocking thing is when i found out that i was overdued with the amount $6.60.

Amazing right.
Anyway, i'll just cut to the chase okay.

I had a great time.

I dont know what they're doing.

So dont ask me.

Look at how pathetic my face is.

Priceless faces.

What it feels like to hangout with Syafiqah and Muneera.

2008-03-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

Orchard & Christmas time !

2007-11-27T19:39:00.000+08:00

Face as innocent as ever .

Craziness in people .

Well, hello :D

Im back with new pichas & new layout .

heh .

Anyway, England LOST to Croatia .

WTH .

Im like so dissapointed .

Now they cant qualify for Euro 2008 .

Fcuk .

The main problem was the freakin manager, Steve McLaren .

Anyway, away from soccer & on to the wonderful day i had .

Meet Fariz, Nana, Shazlyn, Zat, Titi, Su & Yan .

Just uploaded two pictas above .

But didnt upload the rest we took .

Some are even with Shaz .

So, to view them look at her friendster .

She uploaded them there .

Oke & on to what we did .

Went Orchard .

Wow !

Orchard is so ready for Christmas .

There are many sales for shoes, clothes, scarfs even .

I bought one =x

Grey :D

Had our dinner there .

& We've even intimidated some our friends who we hate .

Hah !

That was a change .

Then we bought Haagen Daaz ' .

The icecream ? :l

Yeah .

We bought 3 cups .

I think those were 514ml .

So we shared .

andand .

Fariz was so into it .

He actually, actually ate the most .

Idiot :D

All of a sudden !

We saw Liyana & Mamat .

Sitting on the bench in front of Ngee Ann City .

Like woah .

I heard they breakup .

But they were smooching & hugging .

Hmm .

Yana if u're seeing this .

Forgive me yeh ?

Haah .

Umm, thats all .

I guess ?

& I want Christmas Prezzies !

Titanic - The Legendary Love Story .

2007-11-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

My heart sank like the Titanic,

into the cold never to see the world above again.

Plunging nose down towards the dark,

unknown of which only grains of sand,

know the tall tales that the waves

whisper to them in the deep.

With a split straight down the side

and a tare right down the middle it is venerable

to the thousand piercing knives that the stiff water

embellishes them with.

All becomes frigid as metal in the wintertime

when raw hands grasp it.

Silently the swells roll in

and suck you down with the tip going out of view

and the ocean's stomach is full with its midnight snack.

The boat sinks into death as my heart sinks into love.

It made me cry .

I have no words to express it .

That's why it is called a legend .

Titanic is a legend .

A True Story .

Starring Leonardo DiCaprio & Kate Winslet .

It premiered in Channel 5 . Today & Yesterday .

Broken into Part 1 & Part 2 .

Part 2 is the most emotional part .

Every single bit i would break down in tears .

Even more, when i hear the Titanic Song being played ..

over & over again .

The last part was everlasting .

It will leave you speechless but buckets & buckets of tears .

He passed on .

& She was still living .

During that time, she retold the story to a bunch of close people .

This was his last words to her when he died .

"You must do me this honor,

promise me you will survive,

that you will never give up,

no matter what happens,

no matter how hopeless,

promise me now,

and never let go of that promise."

& This was her last words to him .

"I promise. I will never let go, Jack. I'll never let go."

Graduation Day / Party .

2007-11-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

When a snake bit you ,
You have to suck the juice out of it .

So .
Graduation Day huh ?
We seniors, so the sebok .
Nk tgok the concert .
But overall not bad laaa .
Our badge is still the best la deyh !
Anyway, i came there to tgok2 .
Bukan nk carik gdh .
But some people pk bukan2 .
Psl uh eh .
Fuck them .
& Fuck everyone .
But iam still enjoying it though .
Took photos with Skellon .
Ahem2 .
GAAGAAAA !
Oke .
& Thats all .

Syafiq Shake Dickk & Melissa Shake ?? xD

Hafizah & Yours Truly in Toilet .

There's Mel Giler, Skellon & Giggles .

Oke . See someone beside Syafiq . That's me (:

The lust with desire .

2007-11-09T15:40:00.000+08:00

The lust with desire .

Close your eyes .

Feel my touch .

Dream with me . Fly with me . Play with me .

My name is Lust .

I walk through the night, invisible to all .

I play with those who seek pleasure ,

filling them with need .

A whisper in their mind, urging them on .

Bringing their hidden desires to the front of their mind .

It is me that haunts your dreams .

It is me who taunts you with forbidden images .

And taboo fantasies .

The seduction of the unknown .

It is my hand that strokes your flesh .

_____________________________________________

Anyway, yesterday went to Kak Nana's open house .

With Zat, Shaz, Wan, Sasha, Ayie, Fizah & Syakina .

Didnt planned at first .

Then she called .

-___-

Last minute agy . zzz '

So we kumpul then pegi .

Stayed till 9.15 .

After that went Sunplaza Park .

Lepak & Rewang .

Mcm p .

Heehs .

Yeah, then i did a mistake .

I agreed .

So now iam att .

Fuck .

Pictures .

2007-11-03T18:05:00.000+08:00

I owe you guys photos .
hurhur .
There are more but sadly something happened & i cant upload more .
):
Hope this is enough .

Old school .

2007-11-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

Missing something like hell .

You would go all out to get it .

Back to old school, I guess .

Yesterday jalan rayer with Sufiyan, A. Zaki, Khai, Hafizah, Shahril, Atiqah & others .

There all were primary school friends .

We rayer till malam .

It was soo much fun .

We went to many houses .

Collected many packets .

But the bomb of the day was when we went to Riyah's umah .

Chia, Raz & Helni was there .

Then when we was already out the door .

Chia & Yan gadoh .

-_________________-

But seriously .. childish larhs .

Then Riyah's tingkap was open .

Then we all was already out .

Behind the door .

After that, Yan sneaked in by the window .

Then he went back in the living room .

& Again out the door .

Haas .

Damn, that was funny .

I was laughing all the way .

Then stopped at Mdonald .

Mkn2 sket .

Then .. blah blah blah ..

Thus, I reached home .

LOL .

Next post iam gonna post the pictures we took yesterday .

2007-10-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

Song : Neyo - Because of you.
Mood : Everyone's an ass.

Wow.
Just a small thing.
It turned into a big fucking problem.
What the hell you want?
See. That's the problem.
I trusted her too much.
Maybe she took advantage of it & stepped all over my head.
I didnt even thought she would do that.
Well her true colours shown.
Its oke.
Iam not gonna sit down & cry like some little coward.
Iam actually not gonna do anything.
This is nothing.
Whatever you guys wanna say.
Say.
You guys have the capability of talking trash bout someone.
& You do it very well.
I congragulate you on that.
Now i know who my true friends are.

Long weekendd.

2007-10-21T15:14:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not posting the last few days.

Been busy lately.

Padahal tk. Hoho.

Anyway, yesterdae & before yesterdae jln rayer ngn ramai orng.

Sha, Razin, Haniff, Khai, Saf, Aidil, Amirah, Nazhan, Nazmi, yana, rafi & others.

Rayer till late night.

The best part was when another group pon jln rayer.

They had more than 30 people.

& it was about 7 going to be 8pm.

We all, including those 30+ ppl, walked on the pavement.

We walked in pairs.

It was like a LONG line.

Because they had 30+ ppl & plus ours.

It was really longgg.

Then 2 of them went opposite & took photo.

Because he wanted to put it in friendsterrr.

Seriously kelakaa.

Then someone dropped his sampinggg!

Unexpected agy sey.

HAAAAA.

Then blah blah blahh ..

& then I reached home.

Wait before that..

Ade orng mntk no.

Hwahwa.

SHA knows.

She even read it.

HAAAA.

Conferm after this kayerr!

But not fer long.

Later bankrupt.

Hoho(:

Sha Nazhan & Hanif

i wont gain anything.

2007-10-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

you know i dont like you.

its damn obvious.

you should know.

i dont wanna make it worse.

what is done.

is done.

dont act all-innocent in front.

but a bitch behind.

iam not giving names.

its not that iam scared.

why the hell would i be for?

what will i gain?

you wanna point.

point infront of me.

i have a face.

come and find me.

iam not scared.

whats between you & me.

is between you & me.

you dont call people.

i dont call people.

fair?

like i say.

i dont wanna act big or what the hell you people call it.

this thing or grudge that we have.

is for little babies.

iam not one.

& iam certainly sure that y're not one either.

am i right?

so, lets settle this like adults.

if you refuse, then i know what u're really made of.

COWARDNESS.

OH BOY.

2007-10-07T17:02:00.000+08:00

when a boy makes a girl jealous.

A boy and a girl,
best of friends,
from elementary to high school,
from begining to end.

Through all these years,
their friendship grew,
they both felt the same,
but neither knew.

Each waking moment,
since the day they met,
they both loved each other,
sunrise to sunset.

He was all she had.
He was the one,
who kept her away from the knife.

She was his angel,
she made him smile.
Though life threw his curves,
she made it all worth while.

Then one day,
things went terribly wrong.
The next few weeks
Were like a very sad song.

He made her jealous,
on purpose he tried.
When the girl asked, "Do you love me?"
On purpose he lied.

He played with jealousy.

Like it was a game.

Little did he know.

things would never be the same.

His plan was working,

but he had no clue.

How wrong things would go,

the damage he would do.

One night she broke down,

feeling very alone.

Just her and the blade,

no one else home.

She dialled his number,

he answered "Hello"

She told him she loved him,

and hung up the phone.

He raced to her house,

just a minute too late.

Found her lying in blood,

her heart had no rate.

Beside her was a note,

in it her confession.

Her love for this boy,

her only obsession.

As he read the note,

he knelt down and cried.

Grabbed her knife,

that night they both died.

She was found in his arms,

both of them dead.

Under the note

his handwriting said :

"I loved her so,

she never knew.

All this time,

I loved her too."

saddening ritee?

i ripped this from friendster.

haas.

this LONGG poem touched me.

cant explain how.

but it touched me in a way.

oke.

i must be mugging now.

but instead, iam here.

BLOGGING my brains out.

slacking BIG-TIME.

iam so dead.

no way, iam telling you,

NO WAY

am i going to go into NT.

NO FUCKING WAY.

ERGHH!
id rather kill myself than go there.

seriously.

i screwed up.

2007-10-05T16:37:00.000+08:00

Mood : fucked up.
Song : Avril Lavinge - I will be.

i fucking screwed up.

sorry for my vulgarities.

its over.

that's the subject iam best at,

& now i feel like iam gonna fail it.

TERRIBLY.

what's happening?

i studied for Lit.

i should have at least attempted most of the questions.

i left 5 questions out.

one of the questions cost me 10 marks.

ive left with no choice.

iam gonna fail it.

i know damn well where my mistakes were.

i spent too much time on THAT fucking question.

its a fucking lesson for me.

bullshits.

i enjoyed faking it.

2007-09-28T22:41:00.001+08:00

"any random photo."

Mood : Confused.

Song : Red Jump Suit Apparatus - Face down.

today was english paper 1.
i think i faired contently well.
wrote over 3 & a half pages.
the paper was alrite.
not hard - not easy.
oke.
today was also malay paper 1.
isk.
tu terok.
i wasnt really concentrating.
i kept looking out the class - looking at boys.
seriously.
so.. mybe, fer malay paper 1 i will just pass or fail.

either one.
i dont feel too confident for that paper.
but.. we'll see how.

Sing like no one is listening,
dance like no one is watching;
love like you'll never get hurt;
& live like its heaven on Earth.

after school hours.

2007-09-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

"everything happens because of this"

Mood : sad & bored.

Song : Plain White T - Hey there Delilah.

everything is happening soo fast.
i like it but at the same time hate it.
exams are arnd the corner.. stress laa.
but all going to pay off.
riteee?

anyway, went playgrnd and lepak there.
but we found out that e was plygrnd wet - rained heavily todae.
then we just went underneath a blk.
lately, there are mny problems.
my problems..
my friends problems..
haiz.

the more i see his sadness.
the more i pity him.
i want to help him.
but how?
what can i do?
she will never listen.
that girls really stubborn.

his words.

2007-09-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

Mood : Content.
Song : Eve ft Sean Paul - Give it to you.

went out with Rizal, Shazlyn & Zat.
roamed the streets of Geylang.
very2 the kecoh !
we didnt buy anithin but just tgk2 jek.
soon, time nk buke puase.
we grabbed a coffeeshop, then we eat.
pnye laa best !

then we proceeded to Changi Beach.
Lyn ngn Zat soon become intimate.
me & Rizal ketawe jek.
we then, left them alone.
we talked then..
there was this part which i just break down in tears.
Rizal told me this :

believe what ur heart says.
i dont have to leave you for her.
ur very special to me - more than her.
the undefined love between you & me;
those complicated thoughts;
those lovely memories;
we wouldn't know what would happen in the future.
nothing last forever.
But girl, i will still love you♥;